How I really feel about myself

I am not the embodiment of beauty...I am not thin, sporty, nor am I the most fashionably dressed. My hair doesn't flow in waves, curl in ringlets, nor does it lie completely flat and it definitely doesn't shine like I want it to. My skin is not tan or completely blemish free...Sometimes I feel like I am as big as cow or so pale I look sick. When I see me I dont see beauty.

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Can't think if a title lol...well I've been busy writing my super hero novel thingy lol it's going pretty great. Artistically I'm on top. But my life is slowly slipping into a lower dimension of hell. I can't seem to get my life in order. The world is slipping away from me and I can't catch it

Why me!

The world hates me!